D-Day 46

2 major incidents today.

1. A stupid lao beng decided to pick a fight with me. Let's just say if it was just a few months ago, I probably would have him down flat on the ground in a few seconds. But now, I didn't retaliate. Not cos I was afraid. It's cos I've mellowed. I realize I can keep my temper in check better now. Sometimes, knowing you can easily hurt somebody really bad and yet choosing to not hurt at all makes you feel like a bigger man. Enlightenment of the day.

2. I received an English lesson today...
Note to self: "Once in a while" equates to damn fucking long one time, eg. one year once. "Regular" refers to a shorter period of time taken for repetition, eg. once a week.

I have been enlightened.

Good night.

D-Day 45

Finished my Excel Expert course yesterday.

Damn tough. So many bloody functions that I probably will never use in the next 5, 10 years were tested. Somehow managed to finish the test in the allotted 50 mins.

I'm just glad it's over...

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I'm spending the day with Bebe today. Checked in at GMR yesterday night.

Poor thing couldn't sleep well the whole night cos of my incessant snoring... If only she knew I couldn't sleep well too cos I was freezing the whole night with her pulling the entire blanket onto her.

Love is such a complex thing... She puts up with my snoring without killing me. I put up with the arctic temperature cos I didn't wanna pull the blanket from her.

Anyway, today should be pleasantly fun. We're going to catch a movie later then see what happens after that.

Stupid rainy weather today so I guess I gotta postpone my suntan.

I'm just glad I get to spend the day with the only woman that I love, no matter what we end up doing.

To quote a 6 year old I saw on The Ellen Show this morning,"It ain't about the sex y'all, it's about love!"

Adios!

SMS Saga

Whoever invented sms was either a moron or a genius, depending on the situation I find myself in.

I like the fact that I can get work done elsewhere while I'm stuck in a meeting somewhere just by sending a few smses.

I like it that I can wait for a delayed response from the receiver, especially during the times with bad news.

However, replying smses is tiring and really frustrating when you have to concentrate on work and yet need to try to squeeze out a few seconds and a few ounces of energy to key in replies on a teeeeeeny weeeeeeny keypad.

Till someone comes up with an answer, I think all of us with phones realize that we have whether voluntarily or not, succumbed to the invention named sms.

Genius or moron?

Good or evil?

Go figure.

Good night.

D-Day 42

Excel Expert 24092007.

One dingy classroom.

One boring lecturer who takes pleasure in making old ladies laugh.

9 women above 35.

1 single virile man.

The challenge... to stay awake for a total of 24 hours in 3 days and complete the course with flying colours...

To be continued...

D-Day 41

It is D-Day 41. 11 days since I last blogged.

The past few days have just been a tiresome blur. I've been so overworked that I've come home everyday and dropped dead in bed.

I'm on course for 3 days starting tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get to take a break then.

In a nutshell, for now, I'm happy that Bebe and I have been progressing positively and I'm thankful for the opportunity.

And big big big event today. She said she loves me today. This is the first time she's said it since "The Incident".

I am thankful.

Good night.

D-Day 31

I nearly died today.

Was taking a cab to meet Bebe for lunch when an oncoming Honda beat the red light and whammed straight into the front of the cab I was in. If my driver was going a little faster, I'd probably not be here blogging now.

Anyway the thoughts that were going through my brain when the accident was happening was happening. I never imagined life flashbacks could happen so fast. But at that instant before the impact, everything that happened between me and Bebe just flashed through in my head. I was so scared. Not of death. But I was so upset that I may never have the chance to be good to Bebe anymore and not have any more chance to make it up to her.

I know I love her. Confirm...

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My new boss has a lot of pattern, macam badminton.

Today change this, tomorrow move that. Idea alot, and talks a lot too.

See how la...

Actually looking back at how I've progressed since leaving The Force, I think I've done reasonably well. Alot partly due to certain benefactors I've met.

I think I should just stay content with the curent situation with the new bosses in. Slog it out for the next few months til year's end then see what comes along. If I get recognized, great. If not, I'd like to think I would have gathered enough knowledge and experience to be recognized elsewhere.

As usual, see how la.

For now, I sleep. Monday go zoo. Wahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!

D-Day 29 & 30

Yesterday night got back too late so couldn't blog.

Spent the whole night "socializing" with T,D,H & TS at Newton. Farewell dinner for TS who's going to Bali. All the best to him.

No gossip heard though. Just really really tired...

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Today was tiring cos I only slept for about 4 hours from 2am plus.

Wanted to meet Bebe for lunch but she already had prior appointment. I could never have imagine the level of disappointment I felt when she told me she wasn't available for lunch. I really really need her in my life so much.

Bebe told me some guy asked her out. I felt so shitty. It's such a terrible feeling knowing that officially she's not mine. But I'm thankful she didn't agree to date that guy, whoever that is. The balls he has!!!! I know it's been my fault that I lost Bebe but I know I can get her back one day.

I really really want and need Bebe so much.

It's such a terrible feeling.

Luckily the day ended well. Bebe had dinner at the hotel then we went back together. Pure bliss. I want my life to be like that all the way. I must have Bebe back. Must. Cannot take any more chances.

Good night.

D-Day 28

My place of work is really not as safe as we thought.

Today another HOD was asked to leave immediately. Snap of a finger, just like that. That is the 3rd person asked to leave within a week, all were paid a month's salary and made to go immediately. Harsh and lethal. Really makes me wonder who's next. And most importantly, will I be in line?

So far, don't think I've done anything warranting a dismissal so I'll just have to be cautious henceforth. Seriously, it's hard to feel secure in an environment like that. Just gotta wait and see.

Really not in the mental state to write much tonight. I've got a little thinking to do in peace.

I shall write more tomorrow.

By the way, I miss Bebe.

Good night.

D-Day 27

Just got home from a 10 hour shift.

Think I scored some points with the new GM tonight. He came for dinner and we chatted about sports, cycling and running. Apparently, Txxx and Nxxxx have been telling him about my sporting interests. He asked if I would join him for cycling one day. Of course I said I'd love to...But maybe he's being courteous. See how la...

Boss is off for 2 days so nobody to disturb me for 2 days so I'll take tomorrow to catch up on my paperwork and other stuff. Have been so tired the past few days I haven't had any chance to go thru work.

Hopefully no new arrows come soon. Business is really bad. I'm having a terrible headache thinking of ways to bring in business. Sianzzz...

Anyway, this coming week no off so steam liao lor... I really lack sleep... How I wish can get 2,3 days just to sleep. But then don't have Bebe, can sleep also no use...

I really miss spending every waking moment with Bebe...

Ok, I've been instructed by Bebe to go to bed. I shall comply.

Good night. Will blog tomorrow if I can stay awake.

D-Day 26

Tired tired tired...

But once again my day today ended on a high, with Bebe. :)

Had lunch with Bebe today at Swenxxxx. Spent about the same as last night but much much much better even though the grilled chicken salad was quite fridgy... Then spent some time with Bebe at her office. Poor thing had to work cos of some server problem. But I'm glad I could be with her for a while. Like that also shiok seriously...

Just now full house again. Work until seh........ Luckily gotta meet Bebe after work.

Big bang to the end of the day. I really really love every minute with Bebe. Can't wait for the day she's back to me for good.

I miss Bebe. Again...

Good night.

D-Day 25

Still very very tired.

But the last few hours of today was so good my tiredness disappeared.

Bebe recovered. Heng ah...

We went to watch No Reservations at PS today...

Movie was not too bad but the dinner before that was TERRIBLE... I shall not elaborate in case I get nightmares...

After all these days, regardless of whatever has happened, I know for sure I want Bebe in my life. Simply seeing her and holding her hand gives me so much bliss.

I need her, I want her, I love her.

And I know I am also capable of being the best man she could ever have.

I love Bebe. That's for sure.

That's all for tonight. Eyes closing soon.

Good night.

D-Day 24

Very very tired.

Bebe is sick.

Me heart pain, hope she gets well soon.

I miss Bebe.

D-Day 23

I did something stooooooooooooooopid yesterday night.

Sick don't rest at home, kaypoh go help people do tank. Just looking for some company for dinner cos I couldn't rest at home with the noise.

Anyway, when Bebe found out, I got a good one from her. And stupid me snapped. I yelled at her and made her cry. Poor thing. My fault. Sorry.

Was a hair's breadth away from losing her totally again...

I'm just relieved she agreed to try again.

I'm so stooooooooooooooooopid.

SORRY K BEBE.

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Today is the second day of my MC.

Felt a bit better after sleeping a good 10 hours. Met Bebe for lunch.

This woman, very difficult, wear too slack kenna, wear a bit nicer also kenna. Just T-shirt, jeans and shoes mah. Isn't that what almost all guys are wearing as casual wear?

I was a slacker in terms of dressing before Bebe came along. Maybe not that slack just a bit more practical. I perspire very easily so I chose to wear a lot of jerseys which are quick dry so I won't have to deal with sweat stains. That became a niggling habit which I'm still doing right now when I'm not with Bebe.

So pls understand that it is a little tough to dress up. But for Bebe I try la. Don't want people to think she going out with small boy also. Small boy with big equipment! Mwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway afetr lunch we both went home and tried to rest individually. To not much success.

So we chatted on the phone in the evening and decided to meet up for coffee/tea after dinner.

Singpost Coffeexxxx always held fond memories. It was there that I first opened up to Bebe, even before we were together. So I always feel nice to be with her there. But tonight's experience was terrible. Slow service and extremely bad food. At least the company was good. Like it always has been whenever Bebe's around.

Bebe is an extremely difficult person to deal with cos she has all sorts of demands and expectations. But I gotta deal with all these if I choose to stay with her.

I know it's tough. Maybe much tougher than any sort of training I've ever been through. But for now, I know I do love her a whole lot, much more than anything else. Therefore I will try and try and try. Therefore I will change for the better. Therefore I will show my love for her in more ways than just smsing or talking. I will do it.

For now, I will go to bed before my 2 days of full shifts start tomorrow. Gotta take better care of myself in order to take care of Bebe better. Something I need to prove to her.

Good night sweetheart.

Get well soon. To you and me.

D-Day 22

I am sick today.

On MC...

Can't see Bebe also cos we agreed not to meet today to let her go home for dinner.

So will probably sleep the entire day.

I'm really getting old. Falling sick so easily.

I'll blog later if anything interesting crops up in my room. :p

Hope my stooooopid wabbit gives me some peace and quiet.

Me go sleep liao...

D-Day 21

Monday.

Black Monday.

Had to wake up at 5am to get ready for work. And the moronic side of me set the alarm to go off at 4am instead so ended up waking up an hour earlier.

Anyway the day passes without mashap and got to meet Bebe for dinner.

Had dinner at Modxxxxx at Vivo after hearing Bebe rave about it the last time.

Pizza was ok. But the pasta was gone!!! We ordered something that sounded similar to what we had at La Cantina. Big disappointment...

Spent the rest of the evening walking around Vivo. Finished off with coffee and toast before heading home.

Another good day. :)

I love you Bebe.

D-Day 19+20

Two days' blog.

Lazy? Whatever.

I got the entire weekend off. I also don't know why...

Anyway, I booked a weekend at CVH with Bebe.

What did we do?

Watched Ratatouille.

Bummed around.

Bought an excellent pair of Hugo-like shoes from Adidas!!!!!

Bummed around some more.

Bebe wanted pizza for dinner so we decided to go for a meal with a view at La Cantina. Yes I've checked. It's La Cantina not El Cantina. Confirmed plus guarantee plus chop.

Anyway, we were witnesses to some of the slowest and slackest service possible. And magically, we did not get to suffer much of it.

Ordered a mushroomy pizza and crabmeat pasta in tomato cream sauce. Nice. Had a bottle of wine, drank too fast, became a lobster.

About the service... chia lat!!!!!! So many tables we saw did not get their orders even after almost an hour... Heng our orders came fast(intentionally or unintentionally I don't really care la). We had a great dinner and spent some time after the food playing with a cutie baby girl behind us.

After dinner, whatever happened is not suitable for public posting.

Let's just say we both ended satisfied and with unintentional bruises and rug burns on the worst possible places...

We ended the night watching The Omen.

Freaky...

Next time must get Bebe to check our kids' scalps to make sure there's no 666 birthmark... Scary...

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Sunday morning was supposed to be when we had a slow breakfast at a little cafe selling Bebe's fave soft buns but lo and behold, tor tio liao... I guess the F&B line is cruel, you don't make enough to cover your costs, that's it.

Ended up eating prata... Altogether now... Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah...

Then spent the afternoon with Bebe at Geraldine's.

She looks great after the hair-job. But still the most beautiful woman in my eyes la...

Then we ended the night early after chicken rice dinner cos I had to start early on Monday.

OVERALL IT WAS A WONDERFUL WEEKEND. AND I HOPE EVERY WEEKEND FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE WILL BE AS GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

D-Day 18

Bebe is safely home from Mumbai.

I was at the airport waiting for her flight SQ 421 to land before heading back cos I wasn't supposed to be seen.

Sad but true...